What I said!

2009 I said I can’t wait! I said its gona be a great year! I never knew 2009 would exceed all my expectations. 
I went in smiling through pain and still being an unbelievable friend. I learned the people you love can hurt you the most, and not to let your self fall any further then you know you are capable of climbing. I spent the whole year single. I enjoyed my best friends, and made new ones. I listened instead of talking. I trusted judgment and made difficult decisions, and felt that you can only ever feel the age you act. I was spontaneous, said yes, packed and left town, over and over. I gave to everyone.  I planed awesome parties and got to meet awesome people! The people that are not in my life today, I know it’s for the better. I didn’t run from the problems I stared fear in the face, and fear backed down. I felt like superwoman. I said no, when the issue was not my concern. I accepted that anything is truly possible, and as always… didn’t let others interfere with how I felt. 
The older I get the more I realize I’m admired for not being a follower and in return admire the people that have the courage to step out of the cookie cutter and stand for something and stop falling for everything. I surfed, danced, sang, I went public, I laughed, put my hands up .. I didn’t sit the game out, I hugged, cheered and toasted, I got in front of the crowd and stood up for need’s to be heard. I chose my battles and wisely and fought hard for justice. I paid honor and respect. I took risks in order to push myself and learn my identity, in an adult like way, and change my life; to find my place. 
I stopped making plan’s because: “We spend our whole lives worrying about the future, planning for the future, trying to predict the future, as if figuring it out will cushion the blow. But the future is always changing. The future is the home of our deepest fears and wildest hopes. But one thing is certain when it finally reveals itself. The future is never the way we imagined it.”
I adored the pictures, and laughed at the ones that never made it. I mourned all the lost camera (sunglasses and other random fun things) that went down in 2009’s despise. I played with the kids, ice cream on the nose, lip gloss, painted fingers, pools, beaches, zoo’s,  …. The children are us with out history taking its toll.  
In the end some good byes are forever and some are just good night.  The mountains are part of our journey of life. Connections are not coincidences.   We choose the legacy everyday, we write our book that’s left behind, if you don’t believe in yourself no one else can believe in you. 
Im so excited for 2010 and for the next decade. I have made some drastic desisions that are going to change the direction of my life as I saw it and that what truly matters.